Crossroads

As I looked out into the pier in the ocean while at Scripps today, I couldn’t help but feel a sense of uneasiness in regards to what was happening in my life, and what directions I had taken.

Every action, and everything I have ever done in my life has been done in an effort to promote my own personal happiness and self-growth as much as possible. And as I examined the waves washing away I couldn’t help but feel as if perhaps I was wasting my time. I know I like to joke around and say that my two majors are both useless, but deep down I feel as if I haven’t actually learned anything in college I can actually apply to the real world. My future is undetermined and most likely going to be left up to the hands of fate. I hate the idea of having to live on a whim, and not plan for my immediate future. In high school I had the pre-determined goal of working at a media company (preferably Fox), but I soon realized in my days at college how corrupt and evil the media corporations are in the United States. I refuse to sell my principles out and subsequently have delved into a state of hopelessness.

But, as the waves move forward, they always proceed backwards. I realized that everything that has happened in my life  – all the memories, and all the experiences (both good and bad) will be ultimately used in application to my success life. This include social skills, relationship skills, friendship skills, communication skills, and coping mechanisms. In the end, it’s up to me to determine which direction my life will lead. Success is right around the corner. It’s just a matter of self-determining what success really means to me.